Kindness should have fists.
-M. Svetlov (in conversation)
Fury
They tell me,
shaking their heads:
"You should be kinder...
You are somehow--furious."
I used to be kind.
It didn’t last long.
Life was breaking me
hitting me in the teeth.
I lived
like a silly puppy.
They would hit me--
and again I would turn the other cheek.
I’d wag my tail of complacency,
and then, to make me furious,
someone chopped it off with a single blow.
And now I will tell you
about fury,
about that fury
with which you go to a party
and make polite conversation
while dropping sugar into your tea with tongs.
And when you offer me more tea
I’m not bored--
I merely study you.
I submissively drink my tea from the saucer,
and, hiding my claws,
stretch out my hand.
And I’ll tell you something else about fury.
When before the meeting they whisper:
"Give it up...
You’re young,
better you write,
don’t jump into a fight
for a while..."
Like hell
I’ll give in!
To be furious at falsehood--
is real goodness!
I’m warning you--
that fury hasn’t left me yet.
And you ought to know--
I’ll stay infuriated for a long time.
There’s none of my former shyness left in me.
After all--
life is interesting
when you’re furious!
1955
Translated by Tina Tupikina-Glaessner, Geoffrey Dutton, and Igor Mezhakoff-Koriakin (revised)